Candle in the Night

I was standing in a field at middle of the night
Don't know who put me there and why
Kept looking for Him with my little light

I swayed right , I swayed left with the blowing wind
Sometimes I stood still and yet in another time I was burning deep
I looked above but most of the times looked within

Then realized , I wasn't standing alone
Billions like me were there and danced  to the tune of time
Once a light went out , there and then , another light came alive

Night was dark indeed , but I kept fighting the darkness
Reason was unknown , yet I kept burning like all others
And it seemed through our lonely fights we were all together

Time was running out and I couldn't find Him nor the reason
But I told the blowing wind to tell the one who comes after me
Not to lose hope but keep searching

The fight will go on between darkness and light
Maybe He will come or the reason will find me
But till the day comes I am proud to be candle in the night

Love Phobia

(Father & son riding along and both are singing the song , "singing in the field of reeds , you sad litte cuckoo bird , my pure , strawberry love"

Son : Father , What's Pure Love

Father : It's love that is pure

Son : What does that mean

Father : Well , ummm , It is when you love one person for rest of your life.

Son: Then , Why is that like Strawberries

Father (now confused , angry) : Just sing the damn song

This South Korean movie was highly recommended by a friend and now I cannot help but admire his taste of movies. I woke up around 9 AM and by 9.10 AM  I was watching this movie. The rule I follow while watching foreign language movies (including english) is  :

             If sober , I download the subtiltles and then watch it.

             If not , watch the movie without any subtitles. (It is not that I can understand the movie ,
             it's just that I cannot read the subtitles , then why waste time downloading subtitles)

The movie starts with a  girl in red shoes , with red school bag and yellow rain suit going to school. Suddenly you ask yourself , it is not raining then why the girl is wearing the rain suit. In the way , the boy who was
previously singing the 'my pure , strawberry love' song sitting in the bicycle sees her and though subtiltles
were silent on this , it was a start of great love story.

In her first day at school ,the girl, Ari, claims she has a curse and that bad things will happen to anyone who touches her. Hence she was wearing the rain suit to prevent the curse from spreading. The boy , Jo-Kang,
became firnd with her. One day when her pet lizard disappers in the mud water , boy keep seraching for
it in that mud. After that, they sat in cold under her yellow rain suit and next day JO-kang had measles.
Ari mysteriously disappears the next day.

Ten years later she reappears just as mysteriously in Jo-Kang's life. They start from where they had left and
a teenage love story begins. When jo-kang asked her what she wants to do in the next ten years. She says she will be married to a banker. When he asks , 'Why a banker' , she answers 'so that they can rob a bank to buy a russian spaceship to get away from this planet as she doesn't belong here.When once she tells that she would love to eat Shshi , Jo-kang hitch-hikes to city at night and by morning he brings her a sumptuous sushi. They kiss for first time and next day Jo-Kang gets flu. Ari blames herself for the same and again disapppers from his life.


Eight more years pass, and Jo-Kang is still haunted by her memory. Ari walks right back into his life in
the bank where he works. She still speaks of aliens, spaceships, and curses, just as she did before. Then
she reveals that next day she is going to USA. It devastates Jo-Kang. But next day, he accompanies her
to the airport .

Jo-Kang will soon learn that the truth is far more tragic than he might imagine. The movie moves ahead to show that Ari has AIDS which she got in childhood during blood tranfusion after a tragic accident which
killed her parents. At last Jo-kang traces Ari back to a hospital . In the desperate effort , he went and
starts designing a crop circle in field so that aliens can come and heal Ari.


Upto that point there was no doubt in my mind that this is not sci-fi movie. But in the ten minutes , when
Ari sits in a bench among the crop circle , and Jo-Kang keeps cycling around her singing out the large names
they made up in childhood and a bright light comes from no where and Ari says to Jo-Kang not to turn back
as she is going bak from where she came , it left me confused.

Anyway movie was very cute and funny and have the emotional power that makes you cry without dashing your hopes for a happy ending. It's executed extremely well with quirky bits throughout. If you like this kind of movie this is a must watch ( with or without subtiles , if you also follow my rules)

A Bitter Man

If you could have listened to your heartbeats
Without complaining for absence of some reason
Admired the beauty of rose ignoring the thorns

If you could have lived without counting the passing hours
Travelled anywhere without caring for any destination
Got lost in the music of life and had your soul's celebration

If you could have been content with your blessings
Without comparing those with received by other
Prayed without any agenda, without wanting something more

If you could have escaped from your own prison
Loved without any reservation , not wanting anything in return
Not waiting for autumn to come , could have been happy in all season

You were destined to be the better man
But you stubborn fool , managed to ignore simple joy of life
At the end , now you have become a bitter one

Keep Walking

I have walked silently half awake between my dreams and despairs
Walked too far so as to never return
Embarrassed to ask for guidance , I have walked all the way alone

I have laughed and thought afterwards whether it was real or not
Those laughs seems to happen a longtime ago
May be when I was not sober enough to know


I have cried and hold those tears in my fingertip
And asked them the reasons for their existence
But their silence was for all the pains that did not show


I have danced in rain and tried to be a happier person
But at the end , I was left standing cold and alone
Asking for forgiveness for the wrongs I have not done

I have dreamt of things in past , present and future
Tried to create memories of things that cannot be
Hold those moments in heart which I could not live

Intoxicated by Love's confusing Joy, I claim to have loved
I have written songs about life's pleasure & pain
while swinging between yesterday's heartbreaks and tomorrow's anticipation

But after all these laughs , tears and lies
It seems I have wasted one more life
On the desolate streams of sighs

Color of Blood is BLUE

Long back somewhere I read that 'One Glorious moment under the sun is worth a thousand lives'.

Three hours back,  for the Cricket team of India there was a glorious moment . May be not only for them , but for all those thousand  Indians  in the stadium , millions at home , shops , hotels , clubs , streets , borders , everywhere watching and praying for India to win the World Cup it was a glorious moment of
our lives. A moment to hold forever.

In a day or two , again we will fall back to our daily routine, those who are employed will go to work and unemployed will serach for work. We will be again trapped into casual happenstances of life. There is no escape from reality. However for those few moments when the Indian Capatain Mahendra Singh Dhoni
scored the winning runs by putting the ball outside the boundary in a most fashionable way and rotate his
bat like a gladiators' sword , we Indians were happy. For a moment we were not separate individuals ,
we were all part of single joy. Even those pretty Emirates air hostess by the side of World cup standing
for longtime giving digital smile , tired commentators hoping to return home soon were happy.


You may argue what is there in the game . Is it going to solve crime , reduce poverty , make some new technological innovation ? No , it was never meant to. This was to look beyond our daily failures to something refreshing. It is a choice to make that never lose hope.

From the moment , when Srilankan Captain won the toss and was asked what will be a good score and he answered that anything they can put on board will be a good score, I hoped it will be close contest. And it was , a fight between tiger and lion , where tiger won. When India was 31-2 , I was dreading whether it will be like a previous World Cup Final defeat . But this time we won for the brilliance of our players who went that extra step, that extra inch to clinch victory , to claim immortality. They made us , the 1.2 biilion people of India winners.

Whoever says winning isn't everything may be a loser. Winning is everything. And it feels good to be
winner after long time.

Though like most of Indians I was hoping for a Fairytale ending to the fablous contest , by Great Sachin
scoring his 100th Internationl Hundred and bringing the world cup home after 28 years , I cannot
complain now.

May be God of Cricket has to wait for few more months for his next milestone.

At the end thank you team India for giving me one of the best moment of my life. Thank You